Japunzel

Here's some of the pictures me and Oswald took on the day when we were "model for a day" . The quality's not top notch, but it's a phone camera :P
I only bought one of the pictures from the professional photographer.
Me and Sandra had a fantastic photoshoot when we left my sisters graduation party last night, and pictures will come, I promise. But for now, settle with these highly egocentric pictures while I go for some coffee (tea for me) with my grandma.

(click them to enlarge)



Today's yay:
I got started on my GameAcademy homework. And there's tons of left overs from yesterday, including my mom's magic meatballs.

Today's noooo:
Who's gonna look after my plants when I go to Amsterdam?

Today's song:
Anything with Blondie

I woke up at like 5.30 from heavy rain, like in jurassic park. For some reason I felt very contempt with the mayhem outside my window. And managed to fall back into some light slumber.
Everyone (by everyone I mean ALL THE WOMEN) is making food for the party tonight. I'm hiding in bed. I dont wanna be forced to make student food just because I belong to a gender that usually takes care of that. Everyone's panicking and it's contagious. I hate it.

I wrote this earlier about my sister's graduation party.
Me and Sandra just left from there, to stretch our legs, call our boyfriends and to make the food sink down a bit. After 4 dishes followed by 3 desserts I feel ...less awesome. And very contempt. But as soon as I can move again, we're going out again, to dance somewhere.
Seems Sandra's done, gotta go!

Time to reveal good news!

Yesterday I was at an interview at the GameAcademy. 120 applied this year, and based on portfolio, CV and personal letter, they selected 49 for interviews. Out of these 49 they accept 22 as students. This means that my application was better than at least 71 others, and that was enough to give me total hybris for at least 15 minutes.
The interview went pretty good, the rest depends on my competition, as grandma said. I will know about the 22nd whether I got in or not. I got a homework to do meanwhile O_O

I have also been in a movie! The new swedish major movie Dear Alice. I'm playing an office woman, possibly tv host, in the background. Other people starring in the movie is Danny Glover (Lethal weapon 1, 2, 3, 4) and Ulf Brunnberg (famous as Vanheden in the Jönssonligan movies). It has premiere in march in Sweden and they're sending it to the Berlin movie festival and everything! :D

I've got a new passport, and a ticket to Amsterdam. Return ticket is not yet purchased.
In Amsterdam many good things await me, among others a hippie masquerade, several bbqs and of course my dear boyfriend.

And my dear Sandra is now finally free from the rock hard grip school has on her. We're going out in a little while.
I have also been in the sun a bit. I burnt my legs and belly the other day, but that's the only way they get tanned :(

Lately I started packing my room inte cardboxes and paper bags. Feels weird to leave something that has been my cave, my hide out. My sacred place, if you like. I started with the books and realized I read alot, and most of it good. I might start doing little reviews of books (if you want, you can borrow the book from me).
It's not really clear where I'll live in the autumn. But it is clear that it's not going to be at home. I hope I'll find somewhere.

And I've been to graduation parties (tonight's another one, and tomorrow my sister graduates!) and I ate and ate til' I got sick. The food is no doubt the best part, even though free alcohol is appreciated in a land with 200% taxes on vodka. I prefer beer though (does this make me dutch at heart?). Speaking of dutch, I'm slowly learning more of it. Ik ben een grote konijn! (I'm a big rabbit! Yes, no sense.)
What I miss most with being with Diederik except the obvious (that we're a couple and all) is cooking. I never really do advanced cooking except when I'm with him, and never as tasty food. I miss experimenting with random ingredients.

Oh well, Sandra's here now, gotta go!

Today's yay:
Rammstein is on Spotify! All albums!

Todays nooo:
I don't have a Spotify account. And soon not even a computer Q_Q

Today's song:
Rammstein - Adios

These are busy days before I run off to Amsterdam.
But I assure you that I'll reveal some good news to you!

And I might have gotten started on my "creative blog" where I'm gonna post all the awesome, pretty and funny things I produce.

So you, as I, have many great things ahead!

No I'm not pregnant. I had a nightmare.

. Luni säger: (12.05.03)
me and my sister were slaving for my parents, mainly my dad
. Luni säger: (12.05.22)
we were in the countryside, like in our old summer house
. Luni säger: (12.06.09)
he wanted us to prepare plants and we were crying and he was so mad at us.
. Luni säger: (12.07.08)
mom just tried to stay out of his way and let him do whatever to make sure he didnt get angrier
. Luni säger: (12.07.33)
and i was so scared but i knew me and my sister had to escape
. Luni säger: (12.07.48)
we had to get away, he couldnt treat us like that
. Luni säger: (12.09.07)
but my sister was scared and thought that if we just did what my dad told us to, he wouldnt do anything
. Luni säger: (12.11.23)
but then he did something that made her cry even harder, and there were blisters on her skin.  i convinced her that we should sneak into the nearby summer house that he didnt have the key to
. Luni säger: (12.11.41)
and we ran, and started locking the doors from inside
. Luni säger: (12.12.49)
he noticed and ran around the building trying to find an unlocked door
. Luni säger: (12.13.02)
he was even mader, and had a twisted smile
. Luni säger: (12.13.20)
like the wolf trying to lure out the pigs
. Luni säger: (12.13.58)
and we were panicking checking all the doors. it was a big house and i realized we had forgotten a backdoor
. Luni säger: (12.14.11)
and there wasnt a lock on it
. Luni säger: (12.15.27)
my dad came in and stepped slowly closer. it was a lot like the time he pushed me against the wall. except this time my sister was by my side, trying to hide behind me.
. Luni säger: (12.15.55)
and then i woke up before he could reach us
. Luni säger: (12.16.21)
i didnt want to wake up
. Luni säger: (12.16.36)
it felt like then he could abuse the "us in the dream"
. Luni säger: (12.16.52)
i wanted to go back into the dream and save us

Though this was fiction made from my brain this is reality to many kids, of whom I know a few. I dont understand how anyone could be so cold against their own flesh and blood, someone they raised, fed and dressed.
There's a swedish saying: Man agar de man älskar, meaning "You strike those you love". There's an english saying: Spare the rod, and spoil the child. What surprisingly many parents fail to see is that what in fact is ruining the coming generations is the rod. May it be a physical or mental rod, both hurt.
To be afraid of a parent is possibly the most traumatizing a delicate child could experience.
Like walking on glass.

Today's song:
Rammstein - Spieluhr
Rammstein - Stripped
Rammstein - Benzin
Rammstein - Zerstören

I now have my Roskilde ticket and it feels like I'm improving my drawing skills every day. Has been a while since I felt I improved at all.
And I got my temprary job prolonged, with less tasks. 
And my plants are growing bigger.
I'm off  to Amsterdam in less than three weeks.
Me and Hanne have passed some important steps in our friendship. Yesterday's random demonstration and late night spontaneous sunday disco only boosted this.
And Diederik and I are now planning our vacation together, looking up stops on the way (I guess on this trip the journey is the goal).
My sister's graduation is coming up as well as my mom's birthday.

And this pic isn't making this day worse.

I know people are rarely interested in sunshine stories, but don't worry, misery hasn't struck me for the last time.

Todays songs:
Lisa Miskovsky - Sweet misery (fittingly enough)
Marit Bergman - Snow on the 10th of may
and to break it off:
Pendulum - The Tempest

As usual it took me a while to write, but to be fair, I've had a busy month.

Diederik came to visit me and I've been trying to save my school grades AND my summer by working.

I'll start with writing where I am right now. I am in an office. A tall, ugly glassbuilding (which happens to bend into a square, and in the centrum of the square you can look down on people shopping in the sport store below).  I've got two telephones and a computer (major relief). I'm a receptionist. I answer the phone and take care of the mail. But mostly I sit in this ergonomically designed chair (though the comfort could be discussed) and abuse either stationary supplies or internet. And count the hours until I can leave.

I got this job (a temporary such, standing in) through my mom, she is my boss here. It's comfortable and easy, but oh so boring. A bit like Brussels: "modern complexes", time wasting, but taken care of.
There is a tap with carbonated water, a fruitbowl and an all-kinds-off-coffee machine.
A golden cage.

And speaking of those, what inspired me to write today (I am sure you've noticed a slightly different writing style) is a blog. Namely a fake blog called black ascot. The blog is well known in Sweden (most of it is in swedish) and even more so since it was revealed that poor little rich girl "Erika" was in fact two fictional writers, creating her for the most brilliant pr stunt I've seen. The writers worked for the Malmö Opera, and they were basing "Erika" loosely on the show "Vanessa".
I've been reading all morning. Makes the hours fly, and "she" writes beautifully.
I just looked up the show and it stopped running in april. Scratch what I said about great pr.

On top of everything I don't sleep well nowadays. I don't drink coffee as a principle, but my extra strong Earl Grey isn't keeping me as alert as I hoped it would.

School's a bit so and so, not sure I'll pass that physics. On the other hand, I've been drawing some fantastic pieces and I am carefully optimistic about getting in to Game Academy. My "brother" who already attends it took a look on my pictures and consulted me on what to send in.
I've been considering for some time now to create a blog where I present all the stuff I create. Everything from beadwork to drawings and little things out of clay. Me and a girl that went to my comic class last summer have both had this idea, but unlike me, she went through with it. At Bomullsasken you can see some of her intelligent works/read her diary (all in swedish).
Right now I'm really proud over the scetch I did of Diederik which I recently colored in greytones. And I'm also working on a fan art drawing featuring Batman ;P


My last batman tribute ;P

Finally spring fully reached Malmö.

At this time of year it's very common to ask what everyone is planning for the autumn. School? Work? But as the crisis starts to strike harder even to this insignificant country, people are more hesitent to answer, myself included. I've heard a lot of prognoses. There aren't alot of jobs left in Malmö. Most of them are about selling things, which naturally grows harder as fewer are capable of buying.

My options seems limited by my interests.
Considered options are:
- studying game art at Game Academy
- studying comics as Comic School
- searching for work abroad (preferably near Amsterdam ;P)

In case of studying I can only gather enough interest to study something creative, yet productive. The GameAcademy seems perfect in this aspect, since game art is probably more in demand than a graphic novel. I'm not really worried about the market. It has been shown that during financial lows, people need entertainment (and an escape) more than ever.
My mom's prognose of the situation is that now is the best time to study, and that in maybe two years there'll be more jobs available. The game art education is two years.
If I was to get a decent job, I would likely be forced to look abroad. The unemployed ratio is lower in Amsterdam, or so Diederik tells me. I have to wait at least a month before I see him again, and it is an unbearable thought.

So in short, to answer the question about my autumn: Either I will have a two year education going on, with steady money and hopefully another place to live. Or I will be running around in Amsterdam, trying to get job and a place to live there.
It depends really on where I get accepted.

Back in Malmö, to the old routines, school and cleaning my room.
School is as confusing as ever, got a new teacher ad she can't really explain. She confuses things and then thinks out loud trying to straighten it out. I am one big question mark during lectures. Good thing I bought the book, hopefully I will (open it) understand that better.
And apperantly I was 2 points from passing my test. Looks like I have to redo it :(

I've got this fix idea, about starting to learn how to sew. Clothes, accessories etc. But above all things, I want to make this little hat, sort of a cocktail hat to wear at the highest point of the head.



Today I've been cleaning my room, something that keeps my mind off things. I've been oing it for a while but now it feels like I'm getting somewhere (I can finally see the floor and vacuum clean it!).

Mom said that next sunday she'll call a realtor for an estimate of what this place is worth. This doesn't mean she's going to sell it now and that I'm on my own but I need a plan for future living. But that depends on my autumn, where I end up.

Happy news is that Cornelia is coming home soon. Just 11 days left. I missed her so much.

Hey again. I just felt like making the world a better place without spending anything (but the power to my computer).
And so can you.
Visit these sites where you can click and learn stuff while contributing to charity. I know these links are as old as the internet, but maybe someone out there forgot them or didn't know about them. I try to click as often as I remember.
Not alot of people know this, but I'm interested in the environment. I'm a member of Greenpeace and I hope humankind is smart enough to keep the rainforest intact for another century. And I hope that companies around the Baltic sea will eventually stop dumping their waste in it. I feel a bit naive in this, but hey, prove me wrong and visit the links:

http://www.therainforestsite.com/
A great site where just a single click is enough to donate (someone else's) money. Note that they have the same idea with other issues as well, at the top of the site you can pick your cause, or all of them. Example of causes are famine, breast cancer etc.

http://www.freerice.com/
Just as good idea. You play games with a subject of your choice (math, geography, art, english vocabulary etc) and for every right answer you donate (once again, with someone else's means) 10 grains of rice to starving people. It's fun and you learn things, so you forget that you're contributing to charity.

With this said, I just want to spread the awesome news that Röyksopp is coming to Roskilde Festival 2009!!

Today's song:
The Knife - You make me like charity
Röyksopp - What else is there?
Röyksopp - Poor Leno
Röyksopp - So easy
(just old music, I know, but it's good)

I changed the colors again. As usual, let me know if you refuse to read with these.

Back in Amsterdam! I've been here since uhm.. thursday now.
This is my well deserved vacation, and I'm really glad I got away. I'm not sure how my test went, I'll know when I get back,I suppose.
And I had my birthday the day before the test. It was nice, and I have still more gifts to recieve. I guess it's my duty to have a party in order to get them :P I'm coming home on tuesday morning by the way.

An interesting thing is that all dutch people ask me the same thing, that appearantly bothered them for years. Why are swedish matches called "Tändstickor"? Are they refering to toothpickers? (Tand = tooth in dutch and swedish). I explained the importance of the double dots in the letter ä (tänd means 'to lighten' or 'ignite').
 And I have also now been outside the city. We went to a party so far from the city core that we ended up being outside Amsterdam, in a small city called Diemen.

I just wanted you to know that I'm alive and that I didn't get lost on the way here (but the train broke down on the way so it was a close call!).
And I gotta do some more drawings for my portfolio to send to Comic School and Game Academy. Need Adam's opinions also.
Oh well, nighty night, I'm off to watch Skins until I fall asleep.

I'm just sitting here, instead of doing what i should - tackle my school books. I am stressed about it and I'm not sure how it'll go. But I havent panicked just yet. I grasp alot more this time and most of it make some sort of sense.

I've gotten my tickets to Amsterdam now, but next to the envelope I found an even more interesting one, from Cornelia. "The birthday girl" it says before my name and adress. I haven't opened it yet. Not until sunday. But I found a note an a drawer that I was going to give her. I should mail it to her.

And yesterday I was at the Game Academy for an information meeting, and to meet the teachers and students. It was really fun, I sat by Adam and watched him change colors on some sort of vehicle on his screen. We talked alot and he gave me a few tips, told me more about the education and promised he'd help me pick out my works for a portfolio to send in.
I am a bit excited about it.

I really gotta go study now, the entire weekend = studying time, too.

Today's songs:
Henok Achido feat Sophia Somajo - Pusher
Sophia Somajo - I-rony
The Knife - Girls' Night Out

I can't tell you how happy I am that people still read my blog : >

I had an amazing weekend. Argued a lot at home, but I always had somewhere to flee. Friday was settled, party with my former colleagues (yes, I was still invited, despite that I quit last thursday). The party itself took place at my boss' house, but I showed up several hours after everyone else, and that seemed to be just the right time. I was there for about an hour or more, befriending people and dancing.
Then we headed to Retro, the club I always end up in without ever planning it. And for once they played really good music, a perfect mixture of electronica and hits. We sneaked in through the back door, not all of us were 20 years old yet. And none of us wanted to stand in the long line. We danced for 3 hours and my feet have rarely experienced such pain when I went home (I had for the first time in atleast a month worn high heels). All in all a great night, and a very cheap one. Only expence was 20 SEK for hanging in my coat at Retro.

Saturday was settled too, first a hot chocolate with Alexandra, which ended up in an even longer (and definitely more interesting) discussion than last time. I like.

After that I had to hurry home for food, and then rush of to my best (male) friend Oswald who had turned 21. He had an awesome party and I figured out his theme, the TV-series Skins. Once again I showed up hours too late but this seemed to be again to my advantage. I had missed a lot of people that were there and felt so happy to be reunited with them.

And speaking of reunions, I have bought tickets to Amsterdam!
8th march is my birthday
9th is my first exam for school
...and the 11th I departure in the evening to arrive in Amsterdam Centraal in the morning on the 12th. Not very certain when I will return, but after maybe a week and a half.
For all you who will eventually ask me, yes there will be a birthday party, but I dont know when. I was considering the 7th, but I'll most likely go for a date after I have returned from Amsterdam.

It is also now decided that I should apply for the Game Academy, and I'm going there on wednesday to have a look at their open house evening.
And tomorrow I'm getting a haircut. I have rather long hair now, so I told them to not make it alot shorter but to rather get volume. It's free of charge as it is a hair academy that will perform the cutting. Free is good. I'm keeping my color for now, but later on that might change too...

The past week's songs have been:
Rammstein - Stripped
White Lies - To Lose My Life

Auf wiedersehen!

I've had one shitty week, but a great weekend! Updates will follow after I've eaten something.

To give you a cliffhanger: Two parties and I've booked tickets!

I changed the colors in my blog because all the chewing gum pink was getting to me. I hope I chose a slightly more eyefriendly pink shade now. But I wouldn't really know, I'm sitiing on a MacBook with way to bright screen. The other colours I added were an impuls, hinting about spring and easter. My grandma always decorated her house with green, purple, pink and yellow around easter.

Let me know if the changes are for the worse.
Auf Wiedersehen!

Hej, an update from my nowadays rather calm life.

Yes, I have still kept my job. But I've been saying I'll quit the entire week. Probaby working today and thursday, and then quit. I'm not selling much, my average salary is 45 SEK/h. But it is still an income. I'm planning to visit Diederik in march. My exam is the 9th (my birthday is the 8th...) and after that there should be a gap before the second part of the education begins. It continues until may, I think, and then I'm freeee!
My friend Adam (who I havent seen in ages thanks to his education, among other things) told me that I could easily get in to The Game Academy. I was a bit surprised by this, and also a bit tempted. I might apply for the autumn (I will also apply for the school of Comics and Graphic novels), altough I'm not sure I want to study already. I want to try and live with Diederik in Amsterdam for a while. Most likely not the entire time during his studies, but maybe a year, or half a year. In other words I'm still not sure where I will end up after the summer.

I was looking for a suiting name for this post while I was listening to Röyksopp, one of my favourite bands. The name is norwegian, as the band, and translation would be Smokemushroom. But the english name was Puffball, which I found to be both funny and fitting.

Hi again, sorry for not writing in a while.

I am still working as a telemarketer and still in school so I'm expecting a smaller amount of money to roll in soon, but so far I haven't seen a single coin. But I didn't spend too much of what I brought from Brussels, so at the moment I'm not in dire need.
As predicted I have started to hate my job (and just partly because I'm not good at it) and I'm not sure I'll be able to keep it for more than the coming week.
Diederik has been here to visit me, and I would go nuts if he hadn't. We spent Valentine's Day at an art gallery (Konsthallen) where we were allowed to take random pictures of eachother and then print them out and glue them to things. Brilliant thing to spend tax money on. I might put up some of the pictures. Then we went home, bought copious amounts of candy, and watched the first season of Skins, illegally downloaded. Anti-consuming Valentine's Day.
Oh and speaking of pictures, here is one from when I was out with Magnus in the park, about a month ago. The water in the ponds had frozen so we walked on them.



The trial against The Pirate Bay starts tomorrow and as a member of Piratpartiet (the Pirate Party) my opinion on the matter should be quite clear. I however want to make clear that I'm not in the party for the right to "steal" music, but to protect my own and other people's integrity, an issue that's completely ignored by those with power and machines.

Today's songs:
Röyksopp - Happy Up Here (such a feel-good song)
Air - Mer Du Japon
Air - Playground Love (cutest relaxing music)

I hope to be able to write soon, but without a computer I can give no guarantees. So long!

I was just at a job interview!
I was reallly nervous, and at first I couldn't find the place. Then I got in and realized that this was a telemarketing job. I was confused (the man on the phone didn't say what job it was and I have, as you all know, applied for hundreds of them) but filled in a paper, and the interviewer led me into a room where we talked a bit. He had appearantly lived in Brusseld in his younger days and we talked about some nice places and bars (bonding is important).
After maybe 30-45 mins he concluded that I was fit for it AND GAVE ME THE JOB.
It's not a fancy job, and I will probably hate it after two weeks and maybe just stay a month, but it's an income. I really need the money, so I am just beaming today.

Songs that led me to victory:
Muse - Supermassive Blackhole
Röyksopp - Sombre Detune
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Snow