Japunzel

I thought I was finally feeling better, but after a few days in Malmö I almost feel worse. I am for the first time in my life having money issues.
I've always been good with money, not a big spender, keeping a buffert and so on. But due to issues in school, I don't know when I will recieve studying money again.
This is of course the worst time of all to spend money. But I am finished.
My head feels like it has been on a ship in storm. And I'd rather be washed up on a shore with nothing, than continue to swim in the cold water, hanging on to my last material assets.
So today, during a mild panic attack I bought a ticket to Amsterdam. Leaving on Saturday, I will be gone for perhaps a week. We have discussed to go to Belgium for a few days, me, Dida, and two of his friends.

I miss Belgium.
The beautiful architecture, the food..
The chocolate.. the clothes!
How they take care of everything old. How they embrace history instead of making everything modern. Instead of tearing down a 100 year old house and build a new one, they renovate it.
How you can buy clothes that look about 110 years old, without being ruined. Although considering my economy now, I would be ruined if I went shopping there... so many nice things to want!

Even though I felt bad occationally in Brussels because of my job there, I still love the town. Thinking about it makes me happier, which was slightly unexpected.

I present to you: other (material) stuff that would make me happy.